Archive for the ‘brain’ Category

Last Sunday I beat up the world. I was angry for no apparent reason. I beat up my clients. I beat up Wendy, my coworker and friend, I beat up Bryan and everyone else. Bam. Bam. Bam.

Monday morning I woke up with a neck injury. The world beat me back; it didn’t take the Law of Attraction long to give me back what I put out.

I’ve been treating it with chiropractic care, massage, and more importantly on straightening out my attitude.
I think I’ve been feeling fear. I know how to deal with this; through my meditation and yoga.

Thing is I’ve been working so hard that I haven’t focused on any it like I want to. So, I need to take stock and give time to myself.

I am, however, so grateful for the work. My paycheck for graphics this month will be quite large. Lots of money is yea, yea, yea.

Balance is key for me. So, tomorrow..NO work, and all beach.

Damn, I love living in Southern California sometimes.



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I felt like Samantha from Bewitched. Last night, after I grumbled in my blog about needing to find the impetus for this blog experiment, I sat down and meditated. I cracked my knuckles, rolled my shoulders back, cracked my neck to the left, then to the right. I sniffled. Empty your mind. Concentrate, concentrate. I focused on my third eye.

Yogananda, I’m back. I’m done punishing you for sending me a boy with an elephant head to save me from evil spirits instead of coming yourself. It really pissed me off that you sent someone else to do the dirty work, but I’ll meditate again, and aren’t you sorry I stopped meditating for a few days? I mean that must’ve really pissed you off, right? Concentrate. Breathe. The breath. So, Yogananda, could you protect me in this meditation please? I really could use a bouncer here. I’ve been dreaming about evil spirits and shit all week.

Okay. Stop thinking Kimmy. Turn it off. Turn it off. Turn it off.


What the fuck was that? I peeked an eye open. Did my computer shut off. Nope. What was that? I looked to my cable/DVR box. It was shut off. Hey, I didn’t do that. I just shut the TV off with the remote like always, but not the cable box.

“Turn it off, turn it off, turn it off!”

Oh my fucking GOD! Did I do that?! What the hell. I meant my brain, not the God damned cable box! I threw my head back and shrieked in laughter.

Then, I looked at it the cable box real hard. I whispered, “Turn on. Turn on. Turn on.”


I blinked my eyes.


I took my finger and wiggled my nose. Turn on.


Turn the fuck back on you piece of shit!


Son of a bitch. I closed my eyes again. Yogananda! I mentally stamped my foot. Make it turn back on! I felt like Veruca Salt from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.


Then it hit me right across my magical forehead. Nothing.

Nothing is what I want when I meditate. I’m always looking for that next gimmick to prove to myself that I’m so advanced and oh so spiritual. But meditation isn’t about tricks and magic, it’s about emptying the cup. It isn’t about the click of self-realization, but is about allowing yourself to be empty enough so that realization doesn’t happen, but is. Aristotle believed that every thing and one is in the process of becoming, and while I can understand this concept, it takes the future into consideration. It is waiting for something better. It’s waiting for the Cable Box to turn back on, when it doesn’t really matter.

What matters is the moment. The only one you have. And the peace and beauty in its nothingness.


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“Timing is everything. There is a tide in the affairs of men which when taken at the flood leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries.”
~Julius Caesar, written by William Shakespeare.

Yes, because to force a thing when all else is not in place curls expectations around a fist and shatters everything around you when exerted upon your will. Preparing for what you want to create in your life-right and positive thinking, meditation, physical care are all mute if you do not act in appropriate timing. To know when to push forward and when to sit back takes patience, trust, and faith.

I, for a long time, didn’t understand this concept. If I didn’t see what I wanted right away, I feared it would never come. So, I acted impatiently and reacted to a situation from lack of clarity and lack of faith that an answer would reveal itself in the proper time. I was too busy sputtering in frustration to really listen for an answer.

The Triple Goddess Experiment has changed that for me. I am quieter, softer and more trusting. I listen.

And I am grateful.

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Daniel Amen, M.D.: 10 Steps to Brain Healthy Eating for the Poor.

Since I’ve been a little low on cash lately, I’ve found that I’ve turned to foods that are not so healthy-grilled cheese, oodles of noodles,  All the crap that turns to sugar in the bod.  At the same time, I’ve been studying about how to  have a healthy brain…good nutrition is at its core.  So, I’ve really realized why poor people (I’m not categorizing myself in that group, because I am rich, rich, rich) stick to 99 cent tacos and spaghettios. 

When I saw this article by Dr. Amen, I applauded.  It’s true.  Beans, oatmeal, eggs, water, frozen veggies, etc.  all provide excellent alternatives.  The thing is that eating healthy takes time and planning.  For example, yesterday I bought chicken breast- 5 big breasts- for $5 (on sale).  I cooked them all up last night, so this week-end I’m ready to go.  A bag of beans costs a bit over a dollar-you just have to cook em up in advance.  We’re talking about healthy meals that cost between $1 and $2 per serving.

Hope this helps.


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