Posts Tagged ‘emotions’

Hello dear friends. I know some of you were wondering what happened to me. It’s been so long since I posted anything. Truth is that I got so incredibly busy with work that I didn’t take the time for my experiment. At first I felt guilty about this, but now I’ve come to terms with it. I wanted to see where this experiment would take me, and I’ve found out that if you really take the time to listen to what’s inside of you and connect with YOU, then the rest of your life will fall into place. I am the happiest I’ve been in my life. I am happy with my work, massage and graphic design. I took the risk and honored myself and who I am-it has been the greatest thing I’ve ever done for myself.

I had a talk recently with my mom, and what I realized is that sometimes we, as humans, may get scared, or angry or full of emotions. But to act in a way that is best for us, regardless of these feelings, is true bravery, and what we must do to live a more fulfilled life. Emotions are incredible and let us learn about ourselves, where are boundaries are and reveal our capacity for love and empathy. However, emotions are just emotions and can hinder us if we let them control our lives and choices.

For instance, many love a partner who is abusive and withstand enormous pain because they are giving power to that love, rather than caring for themselves. Or we feel scared to face the unknown, to take a risk and really pursue our dreams, so we work a job that makes us feel miserable. Or we never take that art class because we are afraid of failure, and we never truly live life to its fullest. The truth is that while these emotions may be valid…they may hinder our growth and happiness.

And of course, the flip side is that emotions can keep us safe, when we are really in danger. Fear will stop us from making dangerous choices like going for a walk alone at midnight in a gang infested neighborhood, and anger helps us identify when a boundary has been crossed or violated. Admittedly, we should pay attention to these feelings.

However, it is important to step back from our feelings, even if for just a moment, so we can determine if action needs to be taken. For instance, I want to read my poetry at open mic night at Barnes and Nobles. I’m terrified! Yet, stepping back from that fear, I know that reading my poetry will be beneficial for me. Sharing my writing is important to me, and it could open door to opportunities, friendships and it could help someone who is listening to my reading. So, I will do it regardless of my fear.

Life, love and happiness.



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Today as I took the baby for a walk, a bubble suddenly appeared over my head, and, strangely,  I’m quite sure I heard a popping sound! Startled, I looked closely and sure enough there was text written inside the bubble.  It read:  Every moment you exist, carry the feeling of being whomever you want to be or having whatever you want to have.  (Yes, it was a big bubble, so all the text fit.) 

 Carry the Feeling

I immediately look around for Archie and Veronica, but couldn’t find them anywhere.  Richie Rich?  Nowehere.  Batman? Nope.  It was then that I realized that I am living in my own comic book, and that I am not only the star actress, but the writer. 

What do actors do?  They study their material.  They ingest it day in and day out until it is natural for them to perform their part as it is to breathe.  They don’t just say the words, but they feel the feelings.  The real feelings.  They are not pretending when they are a good actor.  They feel everything to it’s core.  I’ve thought for a long time that the auras of incredible actors like Cate Blanchette,  Daniel Day-Lewis or Johnny Depp must actually change when they are in character.   They become, for a short time, someone else.  Daniel Day- Lewis so much that it often takes him time to come out of his role and become himself again. If they can do this for “entertainment”, then I can certainly do this to better my life and live the life I wish to live. 

I am also the writer, the creator, the mother of all that I wish to create.  the page is blank and I choose and there are no limits.  When I took my screenwriting class, I gave birth to numerous shorts.  There was nothing on the page before I dreamt of these stories, and then BOOM! I imagined, and dreamt and wrote a whole new world for my characters.   I’m good at that.  It’s my best talent.  So, I can do this for my life.  And as I’ve written my stories in the past, I believed these characters, moments, and situations exist.  I’ve wept over stories I’ve written.  And now I must believe the new world that I want to create.  My comic.  My story. I must invest as much and even more of myself into Kim’s story than any other.  And FEEL! 

Feelings are the fires that set energy in motion. 

FEEL AND BE.  BE. Be who I want to be, now.  Live the way I want to live now.  Intend.

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