Posts Tagged ‘health’

Last Sunday I beat up the world. I was angry for no apparent reason. I beat up my clients. I beat up Wendy, my coworker and friend, I beat up Bryan and everyone else. Bam. Bam. Bam.

Monday morning I woke up with a neck injury. The world beat me back; it didn’t take the Law of Attraction long to give me back what I put out.

I’ve been treating it with chiropractic care, massage, and more importantly on straightening out my attitude.
I think I’ve been feeling fear. I know how to deal with this; through my meditation and yoga.

Thing is I’ve been working so hard that I haven’t focused on any it like I want to. So, I need to take stock and give time to myself.

I am, however, so grateful for the work. My paycheck for graphics this month will be quite large. Lots of money is yea, yea, yea.

Balance is key for me. So, tomorrow..NO work, and all beach.

Damn, I love living in Southern California sometimes.



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The following is from the Beauty Body Wellness Associates website:

“Electro Acuscope/Electro Myopulse

The controlled micro-current bio impedance monitoring technology has been proven successful in medicine and in sports for more than 25 years. In September 2002, the Journal of Radiology Oncology Biology and Physics, Volume 54, Number 1, 2002 printed a Range of Motion Study, performed at Fermi Labs in Chicago. This study showed dramatic improvement in ROM with cancer patient survivors after radiation therapy had damaged tissue and reduced movement.

Celebrities and athletes including Sting, N-sync, Wayne Newton, Life House, Rachael Hunter, Cloris Leachman, Jack Nicklaus, Tony Robbins, Pope John Paul, Michael Jordan, the Forty Niners, the Chicago White Sox, Joan Benoit, Carl Lewis, Stephen Segal, Pavoratti and many more have had effective results with the technology. Many have purchased their own instruments.

The Acuscope and Myopulse instruments successfully treat any acute and chronic injuries in 1 to 10 treatments. The System provides for multiple treatment options including site of pain treatment, auricular therapy, meridian therapy, foot reflexology, odonton therapy and CES (cranial electro stimulation) for anxiety reduction and relaxation. All treatments start with the ear clips for deep relaxation, assimilating an alpha state and several hours of rest in 15 to 30 minutes. The instruments detoxify the lymph system, increase ATP, which is critical for muscle repair, eliminates pain and sore muscles and improves range-of-motion. All these positive benefits make the Electro Acuscope/Myopulse System the most advanced tissue-controlled micro amperage electrotherapy computer system in the world!

The input/output mechanism allows this feedback process to be scanned and altered every 2.5 thousandth of a second, on each of the 3 feedback loops, capturing the event as it occurs and responding in real-time. With this speed the “dynamic duo” balances the tissues picture perfect every time by reading the person’s resulting bio-impedance from the cells themselves and constantly changing the form and intensity of the treatment to meet the specific needs of the individual, proves that this technology is light years ahead, achieving more effective long term results in record time. This beyond revolutionary discovery is the only customized healing treatment for muscles and tissue repair, pain elimination and stress management. It is a totally holistic and preventive approach to healing and is similar to the concept of acupuncture without the needles, and is 100 times faster – allowing the body to heal itself at an accelerated rate.

The gentle and relaxing stimulation allows the tissue and muscles to correct any electrical imbalance at an accelerated rate by working with energy levels compatible with the tissues of the body. The result is conformed healthy muscles and tissue, improved organ functions, increased circulation and managed stress. With these results Physicians or Health Practitioners can treat the entire body inside and out, hence a paradigm in medical technology is born. This cutting-edge process conforms to healthy tissues bringing the entire region into homeostasis or balance. Physicians world-wide, who specialize in a full range of treatments to fit the needs of their health conscious patients wanting a pain free quality life, use the Electro Acuscope/Myopulse System.”

Anna Marie Colavito, the president of Beauty Body wellness, trained me in the “La Fleur Reparer” for the past two days. I learned techniques and settings on this $18,000 machine for body services. I will be facilitating cellulite treatments, butt and breast lifts, electric massages, and organ detox treatments. I, however, am most interested in learning the medical side of using microcurrent. The possibilities are exciting.

Years back I had a muscle strain in my bicep tendon and had just one treatment with microcurrent therapy, and it was AMAZING. No pain in one treatment. So, I’ll do butt lifts so I can eventually learn the medical uses. Microcurrent has successfully treated cancer, gangrene, and more. The possibilities are exciting, so I am thrilled to be learning something new. Just like I wanted to do.


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7 months into my Triple Goddess Experiment, and I come back to something that my coach told me when I started-“If you are experiencing a lack of money, it is because you are blocking it.” I recognize the truth in this as I recognize that this pertains to all things, not just money.

I felt tired this morning, exhausted even, and when I took a moment to meditate, it became apparent to me that I’d been blocking my connection to God. For example, imagine our connection to God is a highway. My highway to God has been a one way road, and I’ve been buying my thoughts and desires a one-way ticket down that road sending them to God. Putting the little mind in the big mind and all that. One road out of my mind with no way into it. Energy from God cannot enter into me if there is no road for it to travel. Nothing can; so, if I don’t either build another highway or turn the one that’s there into a two-way street, then I stay depleted. I need to receive and let the big mind enter into the little mind. I must work on a connection to God that goes both ways. I’ve always been a better giver than receiver, but to truly experience God, I must bring her and all she offers into my life. I must learn to receive ALL that she has to offer.

So, I’ll be working on some visualizations of a beautiful path made of light and crystal that leads from God to me. I will see God’s greatest gifts passing along this path and entering into my Auric field, energy, and mind. I will see them filling me up, and I will express gratitude for them. So it is.


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Day 3 of massaging. My body is feeling great, and my attitude is much improved. I went to work early today and practiced yoga for 45 minutes before massaging, and when I was through, I jumped in the hot tub for 10 minutes. I’m eating on the zone, taking vitamins and other herbal supplements. I am starting to feel like myself again. Ya know, I missed me.

This is all an integral step in creating the life I want. It’s like if I can regain what I lost before all my injuries, then I feel like I can move forward. And it feels so great to heal. I massaged a woman today who I had massaged regularly years ago. I had suggested she get checked by a doctor for some particular issues in her back, and her doctor was impressed that I had noticed what was wrong. She is being monitored by him every six months. We never know the positive effect we have on people, and for me it is so satisfying to help others like this. I make people feel better, less stressed and occasionally, help them through severe medical problems. Most often, I relieve pain in their bodies. I love healing.

Like I said yesterday, my next step is to heal through art. It’s funny. An old man whom I had massaged had told me that I was a healer but that I didn’t realize it yet. He felt that one day I would become a great healer and change lives. I’m there. I realize and recognize my gifts; he was right.

I am a healer, and I’m proud.


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I am grateful for living, for breathing.

As I take a moment to reflect and ponder my life, I realize that I am so attached to circumstance that surround it. Invested in the story I tell myself and what others tell me life is supposed to be about. I validate circumstance continually, rather than steady myself by internal contemplation.

Going within reminds me what is important, and what is important is breath. Undulating to the rhythm of being. It is life, no less than that.

So, why do I hold my breath when I am stressed. I literally suffer many deaths when I stop breath, if even for a moment. If time doesn’t exist and each moment is all we have, then the moment I don’t breathe, I cease to live.

I must remember to breathe. Yoga helps remind me of that, as does meditation. It is stronger since I began this experiment. My belly expands when I take a deep breath; it has become more natural.

Remember, my friends, breathe. Live.

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Two and a half years ago, I was in incredible shape. I danced 10-14 hours per week every week, lifted weights and climbed a 100 foot high sand dune at Sand Dune Park in Manhattan Beach at least twice a week, often 10 times each time I went.

Then, I popped my hip out of joint during a dance class. I couldn’t walk for a week, and it took nine months to even attempt to dance again. I limped off the dance floor after 5 minutes of salsa. Not good. About 6 months after that, I hurt my mid-back from massaging 8 people in one day at a place of employment that didn’t understand that was too much. Apparently, neither did I. It put me out of work for 6 months, and I’ll never be able to work for a spa again. I am doing the occasional massage, here and there, but that’s about it.

Both injuries caused me intense amounts of pain…physical, emotional, and spiritual. The former stole the greatest love my life-dance, and the latter took my career away and forced me into a job I was very unhappy in. (Most of you know, I am working diligently on finding work I enjoy and that offers me consistent income. I am waiting to hear from a wonderful restaurant in Belmont Heights, a few blocks from my house. I could be happy working there. And I also have several writing projects going.)

As I looked at picture from a few short years ago, I feel so sad. The past two and a half years have been hard on me, and although people don’t think I look my age, I can see the pain from the past two and a half years in my face and body. I am trying so hard to pull myself out of the cycle of depression and pain that that ordeal put me through, and Bryan says I’m doing much better. Of course, I’m hard on my self, and the weight gain breaks my heart. I worked hard to get where I was.

So, why am I rehashing all of this? Because today I took that next step towards taking my life back, this challenge being the first step, of course. I’ve also been dieting for 3-4 days. I’m ready. I’m really ready to be happy again like that. I’m ready to let go of all that pain. I don’t want it anymore. I just can’t hold onto it. It was killing me slowly.

So, I went back to Sand Dune Park -the first time in two and a half years! The park was closed for “maintenance”…for 6 months! Well, I didn’t let it get me down. No. No. No. I climbed the stairs that run along side the sand hill- them 3 times up and 3 times down. It wasn’t alot, but my legs were shaking so hard when I was done. They’ll be sore tomorrow, but I’m going again…tomorrow. I may not be able to buy a gym membership right now, but I can do this. Right now my life needs to be about CANS not CAN’TS.

It’s hard to face the truth sometimes. I didn’t want to really see where all this pain had taken me. It was dark. But I don’t want that any more. My life will be care-free again. I flirt with those days now. Today was a big step, tomorrow will be another, and the day after another. But for now, I will worry about now. And right now, I can work hard on getting my body back, my life back and my JOY back.

Thanks for listening.


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Today was postapocalyptic.  Yesterday, I slammed into a giant iceberg and started drowning in the cold dark waters of my mind.  Today, I felt emotionally and physically exhausted from such an intense struggle of survival. I am realizing more and more how the physical can affect the mind, and how the mind can affect the physical.  I am ovulating, and I know this has something to do with my mood yesterday. I know I would have felt fear over losing a weeks worth of work last week, but I know my ovulating intensified the experience. Today, my psoas is acting up, and I am having hip pain into my leg, down to my knee and wrapped into my lower back.  I am wondering if this is caused by either the ovulation, or maybe I internalized my mood yesterday. Ok. No maybe. I did internalize my fear yesterday, and perhaps this pain is its manifestation. 

So the cycle would continue because the pain puts me in a pissy mood, except that I just did an hour of yoga and dosed up on Advil.  You see, I am learning to take care of myself…and especially my body.  If I hurt or am hungry or am tired, I don’t function well.  My mind goes to its comfortable place of panic, fear and negativity.  So, the more I can get a hold of my physical health, the better attitude I am able to keep.  Of course, the better attitude I can keep, the better my physical health. 

So, body health first.  That means taking care of what I need to physically, which is eating healthy, exercising, doing my yoga, getting a mammogram and doctor’s checkup and if my new hormonal herbs don’t work, going to the doctor to try to alleviate the peri-menopause symptoms.  Or maybe read Christiane Northrup again.

Think about it for your life.  When my mom was here on vacation, I could see this pattern in her.  When she was tired or hungry, she had a harder time staying positive.  So, let me know. What do you think?

 My Christmas tree! She’s about 3 1/2 feet tall! Isn’t she beautiful?!!

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