Be happy now. Amen.

Let’s see.  Rent was due today.  Yesterday I got really sick.  Probably not a coincidence.  Am I worried about money? If I said, “No” , then I’d be a liar.  The point is, I guess, is that I’m trying not to worry.  I am telling myself everyday that my bank account is chock full, I receive and give money easily and that I am a money magnet.  I am also telling myself that I am in perfect health, that all of my body parts work perfectly etc. So, what the f*** is going on?  I can tell myself that all I want but I’m still buying oodles of noodles!  I still had to sleep 17 hours just to feel remotely better,  Maybe I should make this a little clearer to the universe:

I HAVE ENOUGH MONEY SO THAT I CAN DIP MYSELF IN FINE BELGIAN CHOCOLATE AND ROLL AROUND IN IT!

AND

I  FEEL HEALTHY EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE-WHICH BY THE WAY IS GOING TO BE A VERY LONG TIME!

Do you hear me now universe? Or should I get a fucking bull horn and yell it at the top of my lungs from the empire state building?! Yes…I think I’ll do that.

Here’s my point:

I am passionate about this.  I am not joking or kidding or playing at games.  These are the things I want and I want them now.  Not tomorrow.  NOW!

Interesting:

Bryan just called and delved into a story about his massage client who is suffering from a spinal cord injury and can hardly walk.  By hardly I mean that it took Bryan 20 minutes to get him out of bed and to the massage table.  I guess his client was really depressed and asked for advice.  Bryan told him that he’s not in his shoes and its hard for him to tell him what to do to make it all better because he doesn’t know how he feels.  He said the guess that he could tell him was to “be happy now”.  

Sounds simple doesn’t it.  Be happy  now.  It’s great advice.  Be happy now. I have to mediate on that one.  I keep waiting to be happy for when I get all these things and when my life will be this way or that.  Be happy now.

Be happy now.  Wise huh?

Well, I’ll  post this one.  I’ll let you all see me in all my fucked up glory.  Amen.

 

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Christianity, Wicca and New Age Thought living together.

A little about my logo.  It is composed of three symbols which are traditional from each of their perspective religions/thought…each representing some form of a trinity.

This is my logo:

 

Here is the symbol for the Triple Goddess in Wicca.                   

The triple goddess in Wicca represents the maiden, mother and the crone-the 3 stages of a woman’s life.  I felt it important to include this as it represents the feminine side of myself and honors each stage of my life.

 

 

 

   Here is  the symbol for the trinity in Christianity.

The trinity in Christianity represents The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit.  Three essence of God expressed in a masculine voice.  I am all that as well as the maiden, mother and crone, so I felt it important to include this.    

  

  

  

  

 

 

Here is the symbol for mind, body, soul (in more New Age thought):

  

Mind, Body and Spirit are each an aspect of self.  Many philosophies and religions admit that we are each composed of these three aspects.  I have seen it repeatedly in New Age traditions.

 

 

 

 

 

It is interesting to me that the triple or the trinity or the three is present in almost every major religion, and each of these three religions and philosophies have had an incredible impact on my life.   So, I felt it important to fuse these three trinities to create my own trinity.  The union of all aspects of myself.  I think that’s what I’m really trying to accomplish in this next year.

Triple Goddess Experiment/Challenge

BODY- Yoga:  One hour of yoga everyday for a year.

Well, FINALLY! I got  my butt over to a real live yoga class at Svastha in Long Beach!  Though yoga at home is beneficial and helpful, there’s nothing like being in a room of people all trying to better themselves and their lives. As I looked at them all before class, I thought: we’re the same-each trying to do the best we can in life, each taking this next hour and a half for ourselves and our well-being.  It was a beautiful moment as I smiled shyly at them.   We were sharing our journey. 

Then Stella entered.  An infectious giggle.  A giant smile. “So what do you all want to do today?” Uh, uh. Blank. Do? Uh, uh. “How about a little visualization? My friend told me I shouldn’t do visualizations in class.  That you’ll all get dependent on me and not do it for yourselves.”  Sounds like a jackass to me.  “But I think we should do visualizations.”  Bravo.  Screw your friend.  Sounds like an insecure control freak telling you how you should run your yoga class.  

And believe me, Stella needs no help in how to run her yoga class.  Pose after pose. Breathing, stretching, sweating.  “Hug your best friend.” Giggle. We hugged ourselves.  “Use your breath.  The important thing is to breathe and use your breath at the same time.  Yep. Just like that.”  We’d hold a pose and she’d read from a book.  Affirmations.  Reminders.  Insights. Wisdom.  Visualizations.  Sweat dripped onto the mat.  Fuck.  She’s really working us today. “Well, since we’re really working it today.  Let’s do Fish Pose.” She gave us three options of how to do it: gentler, more challenging, and fucking crazy.  “Any way you want to do it is okay.  Be gentle with yourself.  Never strain yourself.”  Yah.  Gentler sounds good.  I am a fish.  Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. I felt like Don Knotts.  I wonder if he ever did yoga.  Giggle. Did she hear me think that?

Stella’s class was incredible.  She’s approachable, down to earth, and takes yoga seriously but not herself.  I looked in the mirror when I was through with the class.  I glowed.  My eyes were brighter, clearer.  Next time I will take before and after pictures so you can see the difference.

10 stars (outta 5)

SPIRIT – Meditation: Begin with 10 minutes of meditation a day. At the end of a year- an hour

I had a bizarre experience in my mediation today.  I was sitting on my little mediation love seat outside, emptied my mind and focused on my third eye.  I connected to my breath, but then I started feeling different.  That someone, feminine in nature, was there with me… and it wasn’t a good feeling.  It was like the presence was trying to tempt me or control me.  I’ve NEVER felt anything like this in my life.  At first I got scared.  Then, I remembered that I could call on Jesus, Yogananda and white light. I felt her will pressing against me.  I opened my eyes, and told whatever it was to fuck off.  I went inside and saged myself and my house.  I imagined a barrier of white light at my door and said a prayer.  Finally,  the bad energy cleared and I felt safe again. 

I will ALWAYS draw a circle of white light around myself to protect myself now, and I will set my intention for the meditation.  Any thoughts?

MIND – The Law of Attraction: Work with a coach on daily exercises to create what I want in my life.

I woke up feeling like shit today, a little vertigo.  I found myself starting to go down a route on which bad thought billboards were plastered every 1/8th of a mile.  YIPPEE!  I shouted.  I feel great.  I slept wonderfully and my body is in perfect health!  I said all my affirmations and shouted everything I’m grateful for.  Oh yeah.  That’s the right road to travel on.  I left the other road in the dust and felt great all day. So there.

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